Got an interview tomorrow with the social security office in Port Orange. Don't know if I'mma go or not because I really don't wanna stay in Volusia after graduation. Keke says I should give it a try though so at least I'll have the option, so I might. Idk.
Today was kinda strenuous and strange. Anxiety flare up. Nuff said.
Had a fight with my younger sis...whatever.
I realized today how much it sucks to have my bestie live in another state. Really would have liked to have her here for moral support and a shoulder to lean on. I guess going through stuff alone makes you that much stronger; maybe. IDK about that either.
Back hurts. I am gonna lie down soon. Not much else to talk about. I'll write some more political blogs tomorrow prolly.
goodnight
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I'd Like A #10 Please With A Side of 911
So, I am sitting her writing this while I am eating my McDonald's chicken nuggets and it reminded me of a funny but sad story I read earlier. A lady actually called 911 because a McDonald's didn't give her her chicken mcnuggets...no lie. What's even sadder is that she actually thought it qualified as an emergency. She argued a crime was being committed against her lol. Of course she was fined for inappropriately using the already very overworked emergency service. The fast food restaurant manager said that they realized that they were out of nuggets after the woman had already paid and reached the pick-up window. He said he told the woman the bad news and that the restaurant would be more than happy to give her an order than was comparable in price to the nugget meal she had already paid for, but apparently that wasn't good enough for the 27 year old Fort Pierce woman; so she went ballistic.
The story's link is below. Enjoy=-)
Monday, March 9, 2009
Write Your Own Ticket
I am getting a little nervous as graduation is inching closer. Don't get me wrong, I am excited no doubt. I mean I have worked 3 1/2 long years on this degree and I couldn't be more proud of myself for accomplishing something that only about 30% of Americans do...get a college education. I am just a little nervous about exactly what path it is that I should take after college. I have two internships in D.C. coming up in the summer, which one may lead to a full-time position, an interview with the Social Security office in Port Orange this Thursday, grad school is still an option, and I am also looking to move out soon from under my parents' roof. I am kinda overwhelmed....ok, I am overwhelmed. I am one of those people who thinks about tomorrow like I think about now. I am always trying to look ahead to be ready for whatever is next. But what do you do when you're really not sure what's next?! I have just settled on the fact that I am going to have to pray and ask God to guide me and wait on him to answer. Asking God to show you the way isn't the hard part, however, waiting on him to answer is.
Just Listen To Me, Please
And sometimes, I just feel like I am never gonna make it.
I figure all the years of abuse, hurtful words, and failures are finally catching up to me.
I feel so out of place and out of hope.
I regret so much and am angry so often.
I have little hope and my faith dwindling.
I feel trapped and like all my energy has been
And I just wonder what the hell am I supposed to do?!
I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
It's like nothing is ever going to change or get better.
It's like someone has painted my world in different colors and it will never look normal again.
I fear I will never be normal again.
I'm hurting.
It seems I'm always hurting.
I'm never good enough or bright enough.
I never smile enough.
When was I happy? I have been broken for so long.
It seems that my tears have become my lullaby that gets me to sleep at night.
Does anyone hear me?
Do they even care?
Do they see the pain I'm in?
Why doesn't anyone care for me like I care for them?
Where's my promise and my help?
I'm always shouting at myself.
I feel like I am missing a huge part of me and I don't know how to find it or if I ever will.
When will I get the love and help that I so desperately need?
I have been on this road alone for far too long.
I have traveled far but there is still so far to go.
I need someone to help lift me up because I can't do this alone any longer.
Someone needs to help me fly again.
I guess I just have to keep fighting and try to hold on until help arrives.
I figure all the years of abuse, hurtful words, and failures are finally catching up to me.
I feel so out of place and out of hope.
I regret so much and am angry so often.
I have little hope and my faith dwindling.
I feel trapped and like all my energy has been
And I just wonder what the hell am I supposed to do?!
I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
It's like nothing is ever going to change or get better.
It's like someone has painted my world in different colors and it will never look normal again.
I fear I will never be normal again.
I'm hurting.
It seems I'm always hurting.
I'm never good enough or bright enough.
I never smile enough.
When was I happy? I have been broken for so long.
It seems that my tears have become my lullaby that gets me to sleep at night.
Does anyone hear me?
Do they even care?
Do they see the pain I'm in?
Why doesn't anyone care for me like I care for them?
Where's my promise and my help?
I'm always shouting at myself.
I feel like I am missing a huge part of me and I don't know how to find it or if I ever will.
When will I get the love and help that I so desperately need?
I have been on this road alone for far too long.
I have traveled far but there is still so far to go.
I need someone to help lift me up because I can't do this alone any longer.
Someone needs to help me fly again.
I guess I just have to keep fighting and try to hold on until help arrives.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Cell Me On It
I am so happy that President Obama is going to overturn the Bush-era ban on federal funding for embryonic stem cell research. His decision (which he is expected to announce Monday, March 9, 2009) will reverse an executive order signed by Bush in 2001 that restricted federal funding to a small number of stem cell lines already in existence. The reversal will not allow the use of federal money for the creation of new stem cell lines, but will permit scientists who work with newer stem cell lines to apply for Government funding for their research.
I am glad that science is now coming to the forefront again. It feels like we have been at a stand-still in medical advancement for eight years now, it really is time for a change. I don't support stuff like cloning or genetically changing your baby's eye color before it is born, but I do support stem cell research because it is a move that could potentially open pathways for new cures for serious diseases and ailments like diabetes, Alzheimer's, cancer, heart disease, strokes, and so many more. This type of research holds the power to improve the quality of lives for so many people and may even increase the life expectancy of people. Of course there is a lot of backlash coming from the anti-abortionists and religious organizations who view embryonic stem cell research as an homicidal act. They argue that adult stem cells should be used instead.
Research using adult stem cells already have about a 20 year jump on embryonic stem cell research. Potential treatments have thus already advanced to the human trial stage. However, adult cells are limited in their flexibility and only have the potential to develop into a few of the cell types. Embryonic cells on the other hand, can develop into over 220 types of human cells. One embryonic stem can provide an endless supply of cells with defined characteristics. Adult cells do not live as long as embryonic cells in culture. It can also more difficult to obtain adult cells in large quantities for research purposes.
I personally believe that a embryo has the POTENTIAL to DEVELOP into a human being but isn't a human being by itself. A lot of pro-lifers believe that human life in the form of an ovum and spermatozoon are a human from the very moment of fertilization. A stem cell is just a "blank" cell if you will, that is capable of becoming another more differentiated cell type in the body like a skin cell, a muscle cell, nerve cell, etc. Their microscopic in size and are big news in the medical world because they can be used to replace or heal damages cells. Kind of like a built-in repair system for the human body that will replenish the body with healthy cells. With the support of 70% of Americans and our President, I think that stem cell research has a great chance to help so many people and their families; I am all for it.
I am glad that science is now coming to the forefront again. It feels like we have been at a stand-still in medical advancement for eight years now, it really is time for a change. I don't support stuff like cloning or genetically changing your baby's eye color before it is born, but I do support stem cell research because it is a move that could potentially open pathways for new cures for serious diseases and ailments like diabetes, Alzheimer's, cancer, heart disease, strokes, and so many more. This type of research holds the power to improve the quality of lives for so many people and may even increase the life expectancy of people. Of course there is a lot of backlash coming from the anti-abortionists and religious organizations who view embryonic stem cell research as an homicidal act. They argue that adult stem cells should be used instead.
Research using adult stem cells already have about a 20 year jump on embryonic stem cell research. Potential treatments have thus already advanced to the human trial stage. However, adult cells are limited in their flexibility and only have the potential to develop into a few of the cell types. Embryonic cells on the other hand, can develop into over 220 types of human cells. One embryonic stem can provide an endless supply of cells with defined characteristics. Adult cells do not live as long as embryonic cells in culture. It can also more difficult to obtain adult cells in large quantities for research purposes.
I personally believe that a embryo has the POTENTIAL to DEVELOP into a human being but isn't a human being by itself. A lot of pro-lifers believe that human life in the form of an ovum and spermatozoon are a human from the very moment of fertilization. A stem cell is just a "blank" cell if you will, that is capable of becoming another more differentiated cell type in the body like a skin cell, a muscle cell, nerve cell, etc. Their microscopic in size and are big news in the medical world because they can be used to replace or heal damages cells. Kind of like a built-in repair system for the human body that will replenish the body with healthy cells. With the support of 70% of Americans and our President, I think that stem cell research has a great chance to help so many people and their families; I am all for it.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Bumming Out
So here I am on the second to last day of my Spring Break (and the eve of daylight savings time...boo. Gabby loses an hour of sleep) and I am writing about how I am more than a little bummed about my GRE score: 760. I will obviously have to take it again, but not for awhile. I need to refuel. The study books and prep classes and CD-Roms don't do shit to prepare you for what is on the test. The math is especially crazy. That was like astronaut math...no one knows that stuff, except astronauts that is. It wasn't even math you learn in college classes. On well, it was a good experience and I now know what to expect next time. I also should get started on this damn senior dissertation I have to write to fucking graduate. I am pissed about that. Clearly, they have confused a B.A. for an M.A.
It's Bike Week here in Florida and the roars of motorcycle engines revving up can be heard for miles around. I hate Bike Week. A lot of people would argue that it is good for the economy and brings tourism to the area. Like we need more tourists lol. This is Florida people. Mickey Mouse and Shamu bring all the tourism we need. And let's not even get me started on NASA at the Cape. The Space Program is almost as worthless as Bike Week. I am so glad that President Obama is not funding it past 2010. It is a giant waste of billions of tax payer money. There is nothing out there...that is why it's called Space. We can't live out there and there is nothing useful out there. Earth is the only planet humans should be concerned about and maintaining. Who knows, spaceships are probably partly to blame for destroying the ozone layer and global warming...all that bad fuel they burn entering and leaving the Earth's atmosphere. It's not like the Government would have admitted to it since their the ones who have been funding it.
Anyways, Bike Week brings the undesirables to town. Skull heads. I know that sounds stereotypical but it really is true. Not all of them are like that but however most of them look like they came straight out of a Hellraiser Biker film. Not at all pleasing. Bike Week is also dangerous and a lot of them get killed or cause wrecks and alcohol is involved 9 times out of 10. The city allows, EVEN welcomes Bike Week each year but discourages Black College Reunion. No one usually dies, it doesn't last a whole week but just a weekend, and it used to bring in as much as Bike Week before Daytona started trying to do away with it and other surrounding cities began to follow suit. Clearly, race is the underling factor here. Oh, and white college spring break is still welcomed with open arms too.
It's Bike Week here in Florida and the roars of motorcycle engines revving up can be heard for miles around. I hate Bike Week. A lot of people would argue that it is good for the economy and brings tourism to the area. Like we need more tourists lol. This is Florida people. Mickey Mouse and Shamu bring all the tourism we need. And let's not even get me started on NASA at the Cape. The Space Program is almost as worthless as Bike Week. I am so glad that President Obama is not funding it past 2010. It is a giant waste of billions of tax payer money. There is nothing out there...that is why it's called Space. We can't live out there and there is nothing useful out there. Earth is the only planet humans should be concerned about and maintaining. Who knows, spaceships are probably partly to blame for destroying the ozone layer and global warming...all that bad fuel they burn entering and leaving the Earth's atmosphere. It's not like the Government would have admitted to it since their the ones who have been funding it.
Anyways, Bike Week brings the undesirables to town. Skull heads. I know that sounds stereotypical but it really is true. Not all of them are like that but however most of them look like they came straight out of a Hellraiser Biker film. Not at all pleasing. Bike Week is also dangerous and a lot of them get killed or cause wrecks and alcohol is involved 9 times out of 10. The city allows, EVEN welcomes Bike Week each year but discourages Black College Reunion. No one usually dies, it doesn't last a whole week but just a weekend, and it used to bring in as much as Bike Week before Daytona started trying to do away with it and other surrounding cities began to follow suit. Clearly, race is the underling factor here. Oh, and white college spring break is still welcomed with open arms too.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Tweet Tweet
Tomorrow I take the GRE test for grad school admission. I am hoping to get a good enough score to be admitted into George Washington University in D.C. I am kinda nervous but I am ready to go and do it to get it over and done with. I swear, if I could jump up right now and go take the test at 11pm in my jammies, I would. That is how badly I want to get past this hurdle. I have been trying to relax and have been watching episodes of CSI:NY online tonight. I love that show. I also got a twitter today which is kinda cool. I usually just referred to it as stalker but now I see it's not AS creepy as I thought it would be. My little sis turned me on to it. You know me, always gotta be in the loop. My little url is www.twitter.com/glamalicious if anybody is interested. I am following like nine peeps right now. President Barack Obama, Hill Harper, Jane Fonda, Bill Gates, Diablo Cody, Britney Spears, Perez Hilton, CNN,...and some other person who I think is important lol. Anyways, not much else I feel like blogging about right now, so I am going to log off now and call it a night pretty soon.
xoxox,
Gabby
xoxox,
Gabby
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